lol..i chiong my homework..so tired... i did 14 pages of tedious POAs..... 3 physics chapter..... 2 comprehension.... and i stll hav like 10 amaths exercise 20 emaths including worksheet and a chinese blogging staff... god's gosh's christs' worst chrisis~~

damn! 1 more week and back to school.. zz i am bored ~~~ i wish i could just fly awway to hogwards now.. its now a very save n muggle welcoming place....


and whoever who spammed my blog is a SPAMMER! well let me give u my new quote spammers

Dont spam jus read or leave or give nice comments :)


yeah~~ nice??

actually.. me no blame the spammers.... cosz me think tht... argh!!! i dunno..... sec 3 weakens ones energy... be it physically or mentally but thoughens ones' endurance and determination.. tht how this whole thing is going to be......so tired yet so determind not to rest.....its 2.43am... and i still cant sleep... so i type n erased type n erased my blog.... i want to change my blogskins but forget how to... i dunno y.. but i am so stress now..i think i am going crazy... i am typing with one hand(right) so fast.... even my right pinkie is at work....

its creepy... but almost everytimes it rains... the infant babies cries louder than a 230 watts speaker n its raning now n te baby s freakin' me out... i supposed rain could give me a helping hand hahahaha.....zzz borin~~ yea me noe.....i seriously feel like going to live in africa or something... my daily life is just so "routined" me want to live my life differently everyday.. me want to expericend life in everyway.... thts is likely wat me is gonna to do.....


i am yawning n i dunno weather the "water" comin out of my eyes are water or tears or something......... hav u ever try losing something that u hate but like n dislike n loved.. tht kinda of things is extraordinary. try losing them n u'll noe the purpose u lived...gosh... the baby is crying again....wats ur utilmate goal?? dont tell me u hav no goal... my goal is to get a job tht will allows n force me to travel around the world.. maybe something like a superstar or a super reporter or a ran away prizoner... haha jkjk....zzz.. i hav been searving the internet for 3 hours after i finished me poa stuff... 3 o'clock now....... atcually i am quite disappointed with my results n hated myself for not studying MYE.. i mean... would u study hard for ur up commin exams when the last one separated u from ur frens becos of the good n bad results?? of course u would...n i was so sad bout my EOY last that i swear to work hard... n i did.. onli on the 1st termof the year 2008.. i scored good results where others are laggin behind at tests.. i then slack a bit n still got good results n i was so happy... and then i got proud of myself n stop working hard.. n i saw my results signficantly dropped n i didnt bother as i was too proud... n in the end ... my inprovements were minimal at te MYE..it sucks...... zzzz bored.. i have been typing for half an hour.. and i a, very awake now... i don tink i am goin to the ice skating thingee .... i am too lifeless.. i stopped playin basketball i stop goin around with my camera tryin to get a good photo..... i've stopped dreamin bout myself doing greats things because i start to THINK.. y did i stary to think.. me dunno oso

it may bcos because i heard a young girl ask his mom this question when he saw the saving gaia boy being chained saw on the head advertisements...... the young girl ask... :' Mom... y do we live when the world is about to perish"(well in chinese of course) .. when i heard is..... it set me thinking for awhile... hten i realise tht i had come by this topic in the past as well... even had a conversation on it wth someone.. but never had i felt tht way.... and so i thought.....and thought... zzz i no nobody is gonna read until here.. but if u did i'll appreaciate.. theres should be loads of place that u do not understand bcos of my english and sentence structure but i wont bother ...haha

haha.. i had nth to do and i visited th class blog jus now..i look at the video of myself trying to pop the schampain... i was so happy... those smiles were so real i was so cheerful... n laughed stupids things.. n so GAY haha... i thougt i feel like jumoing inside the computer that moment.. haiz .... let the bygones be bygones.... i know i have been too tense.. i dunno y oso.. me have been trying to let loose my self but i am afraid tht i might lose my grip and become lazy on school work again.. but sometimes i think tht its good to become lazy as i'll become happy... but i think again and found myself a sec 3 so i could never do tht....

i wan to apologise to vincent teo for disturbing him i dunno y oso... actually... giving myself discipline n forces myself to study is one of the hardest thinges i have done... i mean.. i am not a bookworm nor study ppl type... i dun hav the studyin genes in me.... i could hav had much much more progress if i could just let myeself take control of myself n become a complete ganster... for the past three years i have been crossing the line that seprates a bookworm n a gangster a servaral times... and its hard... real hard.... i really feel tht i am complete failure.. me aint a gangster.. nr did i really study.. i am just hang halfway from to point.. not death nor alive.. tht wolud be the worsts i guess... i am always so hesitant in doing things even i those i am confident of.....
i know i am real stupid now... and i think my words i fighting and objectin against each other.....
i'll hav to let things takes its natural now...i had to finish my mathe n chinese tmr.... n jus by the thoughts of the monday supplementary classes stressess me up... haiz... a million sigh is not enuf for me now... i nid at least a infinity..